Ok, I don't know about you but already (1/6 of the way into this study) my toes are getting stepped on BIG time! God's showing me that I've been conforming to the pattern of this world (as our memory verse tells to NOT do) by retaliating with hurtful words/actions and by letting my emotions control me instead of me controlling my reactions to those emotions.
Last week I came unglued and not in a little way. I felt my son was being attacked verbally by one of his teachers and I let her have it! That day I cried and sobbed as I kept reliving the hurt. I wanted her to be removed from her position and I wanted to never set foot in that building again. BUT….now, almost a week later I have perspective and I'm working on loosening my grip on this.
Lysa TerKeurst says in Unglued, "It's easier to loosen my grip when I can see the good…loosening my grip becomes a matter of trust. As I long as I believe - really believe - God is there and that He is out to do me good, I can stop freaking out trying to fix everything on my own. I can rest in the fact that God is in control. Which means I can face things that are out of my control and not act out of control."
God's showing me that the enemy isn't this teacher - the enemy is Satan. God's showing me that I held this community too tightly and He may have somewhere else for us to be. The Holy Spirit is convicting me, through the Word and through friends, that God's in control. He's working for my good and any freaking out I'm doing isn't fixing anything! I don't need to fight for justice. God's got this. All I need to do is TRUST!